I need to breathe.

Sometimes, I forget to do that. Breathe, I mean. DH sent me out of the house today on silly errands just to get my ass out of the house alone. I turned the music up loud, and tried to catch my breath. There are days like today when it all feels like the walls are closing in. I sat in the car and all of a sudden, my eyes welled up for no good reason. Some days, there's just nothing better than a good cry to help you "reboot".

Let's catch you up on our little lives. First off, its seeming as though Miss Princess is allergic to mosquito bites. I lather her up with repellent, she goes outside, gets bitten, and comes in with huge bites that get bigger by the minute. Thank God for Benedryl. I can only hope that with time, she'll outgrow it. Dr. D. may wind up needing glasses (or so says one of our OT's). She thinks that D. is having trouble focusing up close. With me being blind as a bat, I kind of figured one of my kids will wind up wearing glasses at some point. I didn't start wearing glasses until I was in third grade - heaven help me if I have to try and strap glasses on to Dr. D's little head.

I took the girls to see Ratatouille this week. It was...OK. The message behind the film is a nice one, but I'm not a big rodent person -- and those scenes where the entire rat colony rolls out to help, watching all those rats gave me the willies.

The other day, the girls refused to nap - they were having too much fun. They're really starting to interact and play more with each other, which is wonderful -- but annoying when I've got a therapist coming at 4pm and you just KNOW they're going to be cranky as hell from not napping. When I came upstairs to get them, I was in for a shocker. Dr D. managed to move her crib practically across the room so that it was next to her sister's crib, and they were playing - throwing things into each other's cribs.

YES. My daughters are still in cribs. Neither one tries to climb out, and I'm keeping that element of control as long as I can. Today, they repeated this performance with an addition. Miss Princess managed to get her dresser drawer opened and tossed every single pair of socks. I was pretty pissed off about the socks, but instantly concerned too. I kept seeing my daughter pulling out the dresser drawers and falling out of bed, or climbing on top of the dresser. So tonight before they went to bed, I moved the dresser to the other side of the room...because I'm bored and have NOTHING ELSE TO DO.
Needless to say, we're planning the move to "big girl" beds, but along with starting potty training, and school fast approaching, I don't want to throw too many changes their way. I've therefore made an executive decision, and am sticking my thumb in the sleeping arrangements dam until we've made the transition to school.

And speaking of school, its fast approaching. DH and I are freaking out. I'm SO looking forward to having several hours in the middle of the day to myself. Of course, I'll miss the girls, but I already have a list of things I want to do, and household tasks I want to accomplish (but simply can't do now, because I have two kids demanding my attention)...things like taking down all of the curtains and washing them...fascinating, yes? I went out this week and bought the girls identical Dora backpacks and Backyardigans lunchboxes.

And for those of you who think I'll get myself knocked up again, you can just jump off a bridge.
Have a great weekend everyone!